You pathetic little piggies are so desperate to give away all you have to your Goddess. I have been bombarded with demands of my whereabouts, wishes that I’m well, and more lewd thoughts than I care to read.
So where have I been? Am I coming back? And what the hell happened to me??
A few months back, things became unruly and chaotic at work. Without warning, my company had a huge blow by losing one of its major clients and backers. This caused a wave of torment, layoffs, and more. I was not among the slaughtered, but I decided to leave anyways. For myself and my family, I knew I deserved better and I was determined to get it.
So, not to give you all my nitty gritty details, I did move on and I did find another job in a more flourishing industry at the largest company in the state. Not quite starting at the bottom rung, but still pretty low on the totem pole has set me back a bit financially. I no longer hold a manager’s title or salary. With that, I have had to be frugal, admittedly not something I am good at. I felt that remaining in the FinDom world would tempt me to splurge and spoil myself how I like. Since that wouldn’t be right if I can’t provide luxuries for my entire family at the same time, I ducked out.
Why didn’t I say goodbye? No one was really around to say goodbye to. So many of you losers pop in and out on me whenever you please without saying anything to me. What’s so wrong if I do it, too?
Am I back? Not sure. I still can’t splurge and spoil myself at least not without feeling hugely guilty towards my family.
So, what I am going to do? I’m going to live how I want to: for me. I don’t care if you get to see me daily or if I’m looking ‘good’. But I’m also tired of feeling like I am hiding. I check in and read messages more frequently now than months ago, which has made me want to come back. I miss the community of people that I shared similar interests with and the pleasure I got from standing over little piggies and splurging on their dime. Since my family is in a better place, I think now is the time that I can also get what I want and need. Granted, I don’t have as much free time during the day as I used to, I don’t see the harm in doing what I want with the rest of my time.